My Story


Artist: Maurice Charles Pian IV

I began having symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia at 11 years old, I experienced some delusions which persisted for years. I had my onset at 18 1/2 years old, right in the middle of my senior year of high school. I was mistaken to have major depression but later complained of psychotic symptoms and was diagnosed with depression and psychosis NOS. I didnt accept my diagnosis. I refused medication and finished my first year of college with a 3.5 and was in very good physical condition, I was a gym rat, I was one of those guys who spends every night working out. However I was drinking heavily, like a raging alcoholic to reduce my symptoms and decided that I needed medication instead. I got on Geodon and my doctor tampered with the dosage for several months before landing me on the right dose and two additional meds for anxiety (I was discovered to have generalized anxiety disorder separate from schizophrenia) and tremors due to Geodon, which has had me recovered and virtually symptom free. I haven’t made a B since I started Geodon and I am now a competitive powerlifter.

Life is good. I have plenty of friends, friends in the struggle, fellow individuals who have schizophrenia, old friends who have come back around now that I am recovered, and new friends I have met since I began recovery by taking medications. I used to think that I would never recover, that the statistics said I was not the 20% who recover, and that I would be binge drinking every night and suffering every day and just getting by for the rest of my life. That isnt the case.

I do not know what the future holds for me, I cannot be certain that I will stay in remission with these medications for the rest of my life, but I remain hopeful and positive every day. My current life is a dream come true- a life without the symptoms of schizophrenia.